My fight begins with me

I started this blog as a piece of motivation... as of right now I have not invited anyone to follow or even mentioned to anyone that I've started this blog. It is something for me to have to keep track of what progress I might make in my life and a place to write down my thoughts and feelings.

As of today I feel alone and pathetic. My main concern with my life right now is that I am obese- I'm not healthy... I'm a chubby mama with a lot of weight to loose. It is affecting my family life and my ability to get down and play with my kids, or to have energy to do more than sit and watch TV with my husband. I have little to no motivation- I have been running for weeks and have yet to loose anything, pounds or inches- I have counted calories, used apps on my phone to try and help and have even tried having competitions with friends and family to use as motivation and nothing but an achy body and a depressed me.

I'm more ready than I have ever been for that big change because I feel that with it will come more than just a weight loss journey... I believe I will find myself again, that relationships will change, my attitude will change, that I will change and be the person I have always wanted to be.

I purchased Turbo Jam to start with... I did a lot of research and looking into programs and I feel that this program will suit me well... I want a work out that is fun and enjoyable and it also guarantees me 10 lbs and 10 inches in 30 days and I need that so I can at least fit into my jeans before it gets to chilly to continue to wear my fat girl capris. I hope that seeing that change in my body will motivate me to move forward and to fight for my health and that as I do this, I will fight for more and become someone amazing.